Kylie Minogue Concert

Stood in line for hours but ended up practically hanging over stage left. Recognized a few of the songs but for the most part was more into the visual aspects of the two plus hour show. That one get up kinda looked like a psychedelic couture mummy wrapped Lady Gaga. At least now I know what it's like to be inside a disco ball.

hmm

It's kinda nice to wake up next to someone who wants to wake up next to you. To kiss someone who kisses me back. To fall asleep holding someone in my arms who wants to be held by me. I almost forgot what a good feeling it is not to be the consolation prize.

Symbiosis turned parasitic. A cancer ripped free by it’s own accord. Unfortunately after years of spreading and seeping into every single aspect of my life it nearly annihilates what it's left behind.

I'm a carcass. I’m what’s left over after a hopelASS romantic is bled dry and cast off to die. It can never go well when you tether the selfless to the selfish. “A friendship at a crossroad: One led by love, the other by necessity." That’ll be the tag line to this soap opera I’ve found myself living in lately. Unsure of who I am anymore. Relearning to be myself, to be okay alone. My self splintered by rejection. It takes everything out of me to live. I cry nonstop for hours. Body wracked by loneliness, by sorrow I once had the pleasure of never knowing existed.

There's no light at the end of this tunnel. No job. No car. No friends. No one. Another lesson learned. No matter how content you think you are, never neglect those who also want to be in your life. You never know when you'll find yourself alone with no one else to turn to.

...

do u ever just feel wrong.
like your up when everyone else is down.
and you frown when all anyone wants to do is make u smile.

.... the aftermath

I'm on a boat bitch!!!!

Pictures from Venetian Night. It started off so good.

Did I forget to put on deoderant this morning?

Seven out of my nine appointments canceled today. I could just have a lucky horseshoe up my ass. My cell phone situation has been taken care of. (thank you, Nazi). Maybe things are starting to look up.