couldnt resist

after alot of thinking i came out the shower this morning to see jub jub taking my place in bed. This man is so special to me. That's why I get so angry. That's why I get so jealous. That's why I get so scared. I need to stop trying to keep him at arms length because I am scared of a repeat of the past. I love J. Together or not, friends or not, I only hope the best for him. I need to tell him that more often.