maybe i need to do a little growing up for the both of us.

Guess I really don't know everything. From what J says he was only talking to the asshole for closure. He's just a very sore spot for me and represents a very bad time for J and I. Can't help reverting to old feelings when the wounds from his previous betrayals haven't finished healing yet. People make mistakes and I have to believe what he told me last night is the truth. I just wish I could rip off asshole's face and use it as a terry cloth for what he's put J through. It's funny how he suddenly turns a new leaf and wants to make things right between them AFTER I answered Paul's phone and berated him a few weeks back. I just hope J is smart enough to see he's just being set up for more misery. I can't protect him any further. He's an adult. By reopening the lines of communication and telling me last night how he someday wishes to be able to hang out with him as a friend and not want to tear him apart lets me know it's just a matter of time. All I can do is step aside and hope they are both long gone out of my life far before it happens again.